Had a dream last night that I got a check in the mail for $32,000. Made me want to stay in bed a little longer so I could soak up the good from that alternate world. Until then, I’m out of fun money for the month. Dinner last night was sausages and cabbage. It’s a […]
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Some nights you need to be useful and read and write and be all self-empowering and stuff. And some nights you just need to spend a couple hours plyaingUT2K4 blowing the shit out of stuff. That was deeply satisfying.
Me: Am I really that scary? Not-Boyfriend: Have you ever seen yourself shoot a gun?
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Wow, I hate budgets. I hate not getting what I want. I hate living like a lower middle class person instead of an upper middle class person. I hate having to think about money. Grocery shopping is like fucking pulling teeth. I have to say no all the time, me, who’s been getting by in
1) Make pancakes2) Finish reviewing tDW series synopses3) Update full series character database from tDW appendix completed yesterday4) Pay Verizon bill5) Write 1000 words of Black Desert6) Go grocery shopping (stay within $90 budget) Things I have already blown off today: 1) Eye appointment. I really need to stay in-network. Money issue. Will reschedule at
Can’t sleep, too much in my head. When does this bullshit go away? I have a million things to do tomorrow, and I need to fucking get over this. I wish a million things. When I wasn’t ready, I had to end relationships because they were ready. Now that I’m ready, they’re ending relationships because
I dreamed about Wiscon last night. All sorts of fuzzy things, too many people, tricky social situations, obsessive concern about my own presentation, doubt, worry, panels, people. It’s not that I’m overstimulated these days. I just have too much time to think. Too many changes all at once, the last couple of years.
I’ve upped my evening workout times from 30 minutes to 60 minutes, and will soon be moving from 3-4 days to 4-5 days (next week, when the new health & wellness program starts at work). The good news is, I have more energy when I get home, so I’m not collapsing into bed at 9,
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When I was twelve or thirteen, I started getting these prescient dreams. I’d start dreaming about things that ended up happening a couple of weeks later. Not big things, but certain situations, events. I’d dream in snapshots. They weren’t terribly useful sorts of dreams, because how can you prevent or prepare for the arrangement of
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